143: Chapter 143 Neurotic Pleasure

Chapter 143 Neurotic Pleasure

My heart was beating. I could feel An Qingze holding my hand and trembling slightly as I passed the Qi Mu. I tightened my grip on his hand and walked over to Qi Mu side. 1

When we walked a long distance away, at the entrance of the room where we were taking pictures, I turned around and took a look. Qi Mu was still standing there. The staff beside me didn't know what to say to him. Perhaps it was just that I was overthinking things. Qi Mu had come here to do things, so it wouldn't have anything to do with me. Besides, he would n' t have known that An Qingze and I had decided to come to get the certificate.

"Qi Mu why is he here?" An Qingze asked in my ear.

I turned around and saw the worry and suspicion in An Qingze eyes. I immediately said," I don't know, but it's none of our business."

An Qingze looked at me with complicated eyes for a while and didn't say anything else.

We took a photo and announced it. Then, we wrote down our names and watched the staff work hard. Soon, we got married.

"Are we really married?" An Qingze looked at the notebook in his hand in disbelief.

I didn't say anything. This was n' t my first time. I've already received a certificate from Qi Mu in China before, and I' m bound to forget the scene that day. I was suddenly afraid to go downstairs and see Qi Mu again. I was going to see him as An Qingze wife. It was a strange feeling.

"What's wrong?" An Qingze asked me.

It was only then that I realized that I was distracted. I quickly smiled and said," It's fine. I just feel that it's a little unbelievable, but we're finally married."

A particularly warm light shone in An Qingze eyes." Yes, Ke'er, we' ll be right in the future. I've been waiting for this day for many years."

I couldn't do anything to hurt such a An Qingze. Over the years, I had been hurt enough. If there was such a person who would always treat me warmly, then it could only be An Qingze and it could only be An Qingze.

Facing the An Qingze, I couldn't burn the intense spark of love from the depths of my heart. However, I could n' t deny that when I was with An Qingze, my life was the safest. Because I never doubted the kindness and purity this man treated me.

I thought everything was logical, but it was so unbearable to see him with such an identity. It was so unbearable that it was suffocating.

Qi Mu, I only had Qi Mu face in my head. When I was dragged down the stairs by my husband An Qingze, I couldn't tell what I was thinking. In fact, I even wanted to see Qi Mu, because I could vaguely sense that I was harboring some kind of abnormal mentality. I wanted him to see my happy attitude.

But when we walked down the stairs and found that he was no longer there, my mood was actually disappointed. I suddenly realized how ridiculous I was. What am I trying to prove and what am I looking forward to seeing? Wasn't this the same as An Qingze? We all had a humble love, a humble desire to see the jealousy and anger in that person's eyes.

I was completely shocked by this inferior self. I shouldn't have been like this. I would n' t have offered to marry An Qingze for such a ridiculous and meaningless reason. I had clearly said that I would give An Qingze happiness, but I also gave myself a few psychological hints. However, the moment he saw Qi Mu, all the oaths and hints vanished into thin air.

I hate myself, who has no backbone, and I hate myself, who has never hated Qi Mu so much. I hate myself even more because I can not devote myself to An Qingze even at this moment.

It was only at this moment that I realized that my love for Qi Mu made all my moves to leave him and hate him seem so ridiculous. No matter how much psychological construction I had done when An Qingze and I were together, the moment I saw him, they would collapse completely. This kind of me, who could not withstand a single blow, made me feel even more disgusted.

"An Qingze, I love you."

I suddenly stopped and said to An Qingze, An Qingze paused in surprise and looked back at me.

"What's wrong?" An Qingze looked at me in amusement.

I deliberately pouted and said unhappily," I'm getting married today. You did n' t even tell me that I love you, and you wanted me to say it."

An Qingze put away his smile and leaned closer to me, kissing my lips. His lips were warm and contained a faint desire. My tears fell uncontrollably. That year, he was the same. He said he loved me, he said he would give me a lifetime of happiness, and then we kissed each other.

"Ke'er!" An Qingze calling my name, my tears would definitely burn his heart.

But I couldn't control myself. I really could n' t control myself. I hugged An Qingze and hugged him tightly. I didn't dare to relax a little. Even if it was a little gap, I was so afraid that Qi Mu's shadow in such a small gap.

I said over and over again," An Qingze, An Qingze, I love you, I love you."

I didn't know whether I was talking to An Qingze or to myself, or to the man who promised me that year.

Qi Mu, we really don't have a future. From now on, I will be An Qingze wife.

"It's bad."

The cold voice interrupted my tears.

An Qingze and I looked over at the same time. Qi Mu stood at the door with a look of disgust and disdain.

I bit my lip and couldn't say anything. Just now, my mind was full of him, but now that he appeared again, I couldn't say a single word.

"Of course Chief Qi don't understand the romance between us anymore. Today, we' ll get the certificate. Of course, no matter how bad we are, it won't." An Qingze said indifferently.

His hand tightly hooked onto my waist, and his lips pressed against my earlobe. However, my earlobe must have turned red. Even I could feel its burning. It wasn't because of the touch of An Qingze lips, but because of Qi Mu burning eyes.

There was no expression on Qi Mu face, but I still saw anger in his eyes. The burning flames that could not be concealed made me feel nervous and happy.

Was he angry? Did he hate me? Did he care about me?

I asked myself over and over again. These words and sentences were uncontrollably moving through the cortex of my brain. I couldn't control their appearance or force them to disappear.

It was a neurotic pleasure. It even made me happier than the Qi Mu itself.

"Is it romantic?" A few years ago, I seemed to have been so romantic with this woman. A second-hand product I don't want. An Qingze You' re quite handy with it."

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