367: Chapter 367 Warming Pain

Chapter 367 Warming Pain

I stared blankly at my phone and Su Mei it. 2

I was stunned for a long time. I sat up in a complicated mood and pressed the answer button.

"Sorry, I called you so late. "But other than you, I don't know who to talk to." Su Mei voice was a little hoarse, fragile, and painful. Just by relying on it, it had already been clearly transmitted into my mind. I closed my eyes and thought of someone who had cried the whole night. I felt a little warmth for Su Mei voice.

"It's fine. You do n' t believe me even if I say it. I just cried for a long time." I chuckled. Using the pain to warm the pain, we were actually so sad.

Su Mei also laughed." I believe you. I know you're doing it for Qi Mu, not An Qingze."

I didn't say anything. Su Mei words had always hit the nail on the head. In the end, I was an excellent reporter and a woman that I had fought and hated for many years. However, she never thought that one day, we would use this kind of tone. This kind of way, under this kind of circumstances, would say this quietly and peacefully.

It was as if he knew what I was thinking. Su Mei said with a tacit understanding," Actually, I never thought that one day when I picked up my phone and searched for my address book, the only person I could think of was you, Qin Ke. "God knows how much I hated you back then. I wanted you to die."

I smiled." It doesn't matter. Actually, you should blame me now." I blamed myself for (Paul) death. Qi Yu had threatened my Qi Mu and indirectly led to (Paul) being implicated.

I knew Su Mei and immediately knew what I was talking about. Her voice became even lower. "Qin Ke, I don't know what to say, but I miss him a lot." Su Mei said slowly. I thought I wouldn't think of him like that, but I still could n' t leave. "This is the last time I've loved someone to this extent in my life. I know I wo n' t be able to love anyone again."

I sighed. Su Mei voice was so damp that I could imagine how sad she should be. I didn't know how to comfort her. No one could easily escape from the feeling of loving someone.

"Qin Ke, would you miss him?" Su Mei asked me.

The corner of my mouth curled up." What do you think?" "If I didn't want to, I would n' t still be crying."

"Yeah, you'll miss him too. An Qingze probably miss you right now. Sometimes, I thought that we all went the wrong way. After that incident, I recalled more than once when we were still at school. I seemed to be able to see that I deliberately bought a dress of the same style as you. I walked to An Qingze and said that I liked him. At that time, she could easily say that she liked him. When she arrived at (Paul), would you believe that even now, I had never told him that I loved him and I loved him. (Paul) had been saying it all the time,(Paul) had been paying it, and I had actually not done anything.

I really regret it now. If I had been more decisive back then, I would have felt better now if I didn't care about that and hesitated to hold back. I still remember when I was still testing the wedding veil, I told you that I must An Qingze come to my wedding. I want the person I care about the most in my life to see my most beautiful appearance.

When I thought of this, I really wanted to slap myself. What was I doing then? Later on, I realized that even those who were favored had nothing to fear. When I deeply loved An Qingze, I was afraid that he would be a little unhappy. When I was deeply loved by (Paul), I didn't care about him as much as he cared about my details.

I always thought that I was a person who was used to paying in love, but in the end, I couldn't avoid these vulgar methods and despicable thoughts. It wasn't until now that I had completely lost that person that I realized that the person I could n' t exchange for was the person I should have cherished the most in my life.

Did you know that when I thought about it, when I knew that (Paul) would not come back, I did not even look at An Qingze. How regretful I was. When I finally found out who the person I loved was, the person I loved would never return.

Qin Ke, I really want to return to the past. Back when we were still at school. I won't go begging for things I ca n' t get anymore. I'll go find you. We' ve been enemies for so many years. "Why don't I be friends with you from then on? I' ll always be waiting for (Paul), waiting for my life to come."

I pushed my head into the blanket and the pain washed away our souls. We couldn't escape, we could n' t take it off. What we couldn't change was the past.

Where did the bright sun go that year? In those years, our carefree and unrestrained youthful smile had been lost in the corner of Time. I reached out my hand. In the dark room, I couldn't find any traces, nor could I catch the haze of the past. What couldn't be returned was not only time, but also our hearts that were no longer like a piece of white paper.

"I know your pain. I know, I know." But we still have to live. We still have to go. "We have to keep going. Only in this way can we get at least a chance to look back." I said to Su Mei.

Su Mei broke down and cried on the phone," But I don't know what courage I have to live on. Do you know that I eat, sleep, drink and go to the bathroom every day? Even the moment I opened my eyes, all I thought about was him. I had to tell myself countless times every day to convince myself that this wasn't a dream, it was something that had actually happened. Even before I closed my eyes every day, I was still wondering if I was going to get married tomorrow, so I had some sort of pre-marital phobia.

I wish I was really sick. I wish everything had come back once I woke up. I've even started booking tickets. I want to return to the day before I plan to travel. On the day I walked to the strait, I could still meet (Paul). He would also say to me that he had fallen in love with me since the first time he saw me. He knew that I was the girl that he had been waiting for."

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