190: Chapter 190, just let me go

Chapter 190, just let me go

Perhaps it was because the blow was too great that the Suxi had changed. When she woke up again, her whole body had completely changed. She no longer felt grief, as if nothing had happened. 0

Suxi ignored the fact that he was still in the puerperium and carefully dressed himself up, he dragged Mo Sinan out to eat and drink. He didn't mention anything about the child. This made Mo Sinan a little worried, but he did n' t dare to ask her.

Suxi had been playing crazily for a whole day. Mo Sinan didn't say much and stayed by her side until the two of them were tired from playing and drove home.

"If you have anything to say, just say it." When he returned to Mo Sinan's home in the Fog City, Suxi looked at her and casually said.

"Suxi, are you alright?" Suxi reaction made Mo Sinan confused.

"Mo Sinan, thank you. The most difficult time for me was when you were by my side. Thank you for all this for me." Suxi eyes darkened as he said indifferently.

Life was like this. There was no eternal hostility or forever friend. You would never know what would happen next. She wanted to master her life, but her life was always out of control.

"Suxi, what I've done now will never be able to make up for the harm I did to you." A bitter smile appeared on Mo Si Nan's face. If time could flow backwards, he would never hurt this woman.

When he put everything down, he realized that it was the most precious and what he wanted the most? But it was already too late. Thinking back to what he had wanted at all costs, it seemed like it wasn't worth it.

"Mo Sinan, I've never hated you, and I wo n' t bother about things that have passed. "Everyone has their own pursuit. On this path, they will always hurt some innocent people, and the person who hurts the most will always be themselves." Suxi eyes were blurred, as if he had seen through life.

She had never pursued anything in her life, but on the path of falling in love with Beichen, she had injured her entire body.

"Suxi, I'm sorry..." Mo Sinan was a little depressed. If it had n' t been for her selfish desires, she wouldn't have fallen into this state.

"Mo Sinan, you don't have to apologize to me. Everything has passed. Am I not doing well now?" Suxi said with a faint smile, giving off a calm feeling.

It was this feeling that made Mo Sinan feel particularly terrifying. He felt that Suxi was disguising his emotions and suppressing herself. He didn't know what would happen.

"Suxi, don't do this... What's the difference between you and a walking corpse? If you want to hate, then hate. If you want to cry, then cry. No matter what you want to do? "I'll be with you." Mo Sinan felt that Suxi was self-mutilation. This kind of mental torture would only cause her to be consigned to eternal damnation, causing his heart to ache.

"Mo Sinan, why are you doing this? Why are you forcing me?" She smiled bitterly and asked.

Her heart had already died with the child's departure. Why did she have to feel pain again? Did he not even have the right to choose to forget?

The impact of this child on her was too great. When she first felt the baby move, she was always looking forward to seeing the child every day. When she had given birth to the child through all her hardships, in the end, Mo Sinan told her that the child was gone. She didn't even see him and did n' t even hear him cry. This was a cruel blow to her.

"Suxi, what's the use of choosing to escape like this? In the end, it wasn't you who was hurt. No matter how big things happened, life would continue. Only by looking forward could we finish our life. Did you really intend to live in your own pain? "Will this continue for the rest of my life?"

"Mo Sinan, what else do you want me to do? Even if there was something huge wrong with me and I had experienced all of this, was it not enough? "My family, my husband, and my children have all left me. What did I do wrong? I have to endure all this pain." Suxi said indifferently, his eyes blurred as if he was asking Mo Sinan.

"Suxi, don't think like that. You' ve experienced much more than ordinary people, but there are more people who are more miserable than you. Don't tell me they wo n' t live? "Pain is also a day, and happiness is also a day. Why do you want to let yourself live in pain? Have you ever thought about your loved ones? Are those who care about you willing to see you like this?" Mo Sinan did not want to see Suxi go down like this.

"Mo Sinan, I'm tired. Just let me go." She mumbled and did not want to continue arguing with him.

"Back then in Thailand, I found someone to rob you, and I led A Ken there. I arranged everything in Thailand. I originally only wanted to separate you from Song Beichen, but I never thought that Luochen would actually treat you like that. When I realized the seriousness of the problem, I already had no ability to save you." Mo Si Nan's eyes narrowed as he whispered about what had happened back then.

"Do you know the hatred between me and Luo Chen? So you use Luochen and the Di family to achieve your goal." Suxi already knew the beginning and end of the matter, she said indifferently.

"Yes ……"

"Mo Sinan, what kind of hatred do Luochen and I have?"

"……" Mo Si Nan's eyes narrowed as he looked at her.

"Mo Sinan, I've never begged you. Can you tell me?" She did not want to continue living like this.

"Alright, Suxi, since you want to know, I'll tell you." Mo Si Nan sighed and said faintly.

He turned around and walked into the kitchen. Not long after, he brought two cups of coffee. He handed her a cup and sat down opposite her. He stirred the coffee and said unhurriedly.

"Suxi, there's no head-on conflict between you and Luochen. He hates you just because he's transferring the hatred to you."

"What do you mean?" She was only a few years away from Luochen and he had sold her to Small mountain village. She also understood that the hatred between her and Luochen was a diversion. However, she did not understand how the hatred could make him treat her like this.

"This has something to do with Luochen experience and your background." Mo Sinan looked at her and said, his extremely unwilling appearance made Suxi heart sink.

Her background was complicated. No matter how hard she tried, she didn't know what her real identity was. But now, she was resisting and did not want to know.

Mo Sinan took a sip of coffee and looked into Suxi eyes.

"Suxi, let's talk about what happened to Luochen first."

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