195: 195 Summon up courage and set off

195 Summon up courage and set off

Lin Lan was still unwilling. I looked at me with some hesitation and sighed deeply. I stood up and said to her," Alright, I know you're trying to help me. I' ve already understood your intentions, but the two of us can't just say a word or two. Maybe we wo n' t be together again for the rest of our lives, or just like he said, we'll live in England." 1

Lin Lan frowned. I urged her to keep up with her." What about you? An'an work quietly now. I' m still like this. There's not Cheng Che one person missing in this world, so I ca n' t live anymore. So don't worry about me anymore."

"Hey, I don't even know what to say." Lin Lan said helplessly.

I watched as she went to work. As usual, I didn't change anything. In the afternoon, I went to the new campus to see how the construction of the new address was going. I had a good discussion with the workers, and I did n' t Cheng Che that I could live well by myself.

However, I knew that all of this was just an illusion of self-deception. No matter how outstanding I was during the day, when it was still late in the night, I knew that I couldn't escape the entanglement of nightmares. Every day, I woke up from the nightmare. In my dreams, I always called Cheng Che name again and again, but he left without mercy. No matter how I searched, I could not catch up to him.

Days passed day after day. Lin Lan looked at me worriedly and said," Are you really separated like this?" "Why don't I explain it to him? Maybe he will change his mind."

The corner of my mouth curled into a smile." If he wants to change his mind, he'll change his mind a long time ago. If you say it or not, he' ll already have an answer in his heart. Everything has no meaning, so forget it. Don't insult yourself. Leave yourself some dignity. Do n' t seem to be praying for him."

"Eh, what a pity. If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have gone that day." Lin Lan said helplessly.

I smiled as I looked at Lin Lan and said," When a person starts to hate you, no matter what you do, it's a mistake. If you go, it's a mistake. If you don't go, it's a mistake." Cheng Che I hate you now. There's no way to do this anymore. Do n' t try to explain anything. He won't listen to you anymore."

Lin Lan sighed and did not dare to say anything more, as if he was afraid that something wrong would touch my sensitive nerves.

Later, Housekeeper Li called me and told me to go back and persuade Cheng Che not to leave. But now, I had no position to persuade him.

After I hung up the phone, I felt sad. I could no longer describe my current mood with sadness. Everyone around the world could tell that it wasn't my problem. Why Cheng Che only you did n' t know about it and thought that I was a person with great sin.

There was an unspeakable wound in my heart, and I didn't know how to express my sadness. Therefore, I could only shift all my emotions to work, and I started to get busier and busier.

I thought that as long as I became busy, I wouldn't think of him. However, no matter how busy I was, he always appeared in my mind like a shadow. No matter how hard I tried, I could n' t break free.

Moreover, the more tired he felt, the stronger his shadow became. It was as if there was a call in his heart. Only then did I understand that what I felt unreconciled was not losing Cheng Che trust in me, but my life. Cheng Che was my life, and I could not accept that he did not love me.

The night before Cheng Che left, Housekeeper Li still called me and told me not to miss him. But I smiled bitterly in my heart. I didn't want to miss it, so he had to be willing.

Housekeeper Li saw that I ignored him and even called me out. Now that both of our careers were stable, we didn't need to rush around desperately for anything. Why did it turn out to be like this? He had always hoped that Cheng Che and I could finally get together, but he never thought that it would end up like this.

I looked at him and said," This time, it's really different from the past. It's not that you can forgive a quarrel for a few days. Everyone knows the truth that they won't listen to him. I ca n' t do anything about it. He has lost trust in me, so it's hard to salvage it. I know you' re anxious, but if he can't think of anything, I wo n' t be able to do anything about it."

"Hey, what should we do? Miss Li I won't lie to you. Ever since he had an awkward relationship with you, his temper has become much more violent. He's always angry. He's not as gentle as before, and he's not allowed to mention you in front of him. "Now that he's smoking and drinking, no one can stop him. I' m afraid that if he continues like this, he will only damage his body." Housekeeper Li said worriedly.

I looked at him indifferently and said calmly," I can't do anything about what he wants to do with his body. "He won't listen to anyone's advice right now, or one day he will suddenly understand. Or, as he said, he will go to England and set sail with his photography dream. I can only wish him everything is fine."

Housekeeper Li looked very disappointed. I shook his hand and said," Don't worry, do n' t worry too much. We're all adults who have a sense of propriety in doing things. We wo n' t do anything extreme because of a temporary relationship. Besides, he still has his mother to take care of. He won't let himself fall down easily."

"Since you've already said that, it's fine. I'm sorry to bother you so presumptuously today. I' ll leave first. Thank you Miss Li." Housekeeper Li said politely.

"I'll escort Housekeeper Li to the door."

Housekeeper Li slowly walked out of my sight. After sending him off, I found a spa to relax and massage myself.

I let out a slight sigh. The two women in the spa hall, who looked like they were in their early twenties, saw me sighing and asked," Why are you so sad?" "This world is colorful. Don't worry about unnecessary things."

I smiled faintly. How could they understand the worries in my heart? It was still a young man who didn't know the taste of sorrow. Everything was a new beginning.

"You guys say that someone has always misunderstood me. No matter how you explain it, it's useless. What will you do?" I asked calmly.

After thinking for a few seconds, they said slowly," If it was me, I would see the nature of the matter. If it was someone I thought was important, I would try to explain it clearly."

"He's a very important person. What if he does n' t listen to your explanation and has a big prejudice against yourself?" I continued asking.

I saw them frowning for a moment." I'll do my best to explain everything. Regardless of whether she listens to my advice or not, I' ll still tell her the truth. If she still doesn't want to believe me, I' ll just let go. Since I've done so much and still do n' t believe me, I don't think I' ll give up until the last second. After all, I'm a very important person in my life."

When I heard what they said, I felt that they were much more relaxed. I didn't think that I could savor what they said. The other girl's eyes were wide open as she laughed," Actually, I think that sometimes the other person might not want to apologize, but your attitude. The feeling of being distant makes the other person feel uncomfortable. Eighty percent of the quarrels might be caused by the other person's tone and attitude. If it was another way, the simpler way of speaking, the many problems might be solved."

Their words made me feel like I had suddenly understood something." Thank you for giving me such a vivid lesson."

They just smiled shyly and didn't say anything to me. I also secretly made a decision in my heart. No matter what, I had to try again this time. It was like giving me an explanation and telling him everything. I hoped that he would accept me. If he still chose not to accept my words, at least I would have tried my best.

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