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16. Past childhood sweethearts

1The relationship with Chen Shen had fallen into a strange circle. It was indescribably awkward, as if it was different from other lovers.

He didn't say anything, but I did n' t ask. The gap between lovers was like this, spreading, disintegrating, and finally collapsing.

After the Spring Festival, I first went to another town in City Y alone. This was my grandmother's house.

This was an ancient town that had a history of several hundred years. It still had living stone boards, stone lions, ancient courtyards, and eerie ancestral halls...

After five years, it was still the original model. I walked past the corners where I had played in my childhood and touched the sculpture that had once been kissed by the skin. I was deeply moved.

Grandma passed away 12 years ago. Today, she still remembered that she was sewing needles under the dim night lamp. Her bright and sweet singing voice was still echoing in her ears.

Just as I was about to leave, I encountered my childhood childhood childhood childhood childhood sweetheart.

We used to be fond of playing with every family, and we promised each other that when I was twenty-five years old, he didn't marry and I did n' t marry. Then we could go together and spend the rest of our lives.

There were still five years left, but it was just a joke from his childhood. I believe he didn't take it seriously.

"Xiao Guan?" Never in her dreams would she have thought that this familiar voice would sound again many years later.

I turned around and looked back. Seeing that it was Fang Kanze, I looked at each other and smiled." Ke Ze."

He trotted over and grabbed my hand, holding it like a treasure." Long time no see, are you okay?"

He was still so gentle and elegant.

He and I strolled along the small road at the entrance of the town, greeting each other.

"Not bad. I'm studying for second place in City S. You' re already working!"

He smiled awkwardly." I've returned to the town to teach. I' m mainly taking care of my sick father."

I looked at him doubtfully." What's wrong with Uncle?"

He lowered his head and lowered his eyes, feeling a little disappointed." My father's lung cancer is advanced. It's about time."

I lowered my voice and felt very sorry." Then I'm really sorry. I came and went in a hurry today and could n' t visit them."

He patted me on the shoulder and said," It's okay. You should be busy. In the future, when you have time each year, come and take a look."

"I'd better go over there. Uncle used to treat me very well. Every time I go to your house to have a meal, Uncle will carefully prepare a whole table of food."

I insisted on visiting Uncle Fang. The next time I came here, I might never see him again. Furthermore, Uncle Fang was my mother's good friend, so I should do my duty as a friend instead of my mother.

He shrugged helplessly." Alright, let's go."

Their house had been renovated and was now a small villa.

Fang Kanze brought me into his father's room and pushed the door open. He saw a skinny old man lying in a corner of the bed without a trace of anger.

I covered my mouth to suppress the urge to cry.

The illness tortured this former family's backbone. The ribs were clearly visible, and only a layer of skin was left on his face.

His hair had completely changed due to chemotherapy.

"Uncle Fang." I called him softly.

"Uncle Fang, I'm Xiao Guan!" I walked to the bed and held his shriveled hands.

He struggled to turn around and face me. His dry and skinned lips opened and Zhang Zhang closed his mouth to try to make a sound, but there was nothing he could do.

"Uncle Fang, don't move." Looking at this miserable scene, tears could not help flowing down.

Fang Kanze quickly gave me a paper towel. I took it and wiped my crying face." Uncle Fang, have a good rest."

I couldn't stand the heavy atmosphere and walked to the living room with Fang Kanze.

"Uncle has received chemotherapy, right?"

He nodded." The hospital said that there's no need to do useless work. He does n' t want to be tortured anymore."

I thought about it for a while and made a plan for him." If I'm short of money, I can think of a way. Why do n' t I go to a big city to take a look? There might be a chance."

Fang Kanze shook his head regretfully." The old man won't agree. He' ll be tortured again."

After chatting with him for a long time, he sent me to the entrance of the town.

He patted me on the shoulder and hugged me into his arms." Xiao Guan, come and take a look in the future. I'll always be here."

I nodded and smiled, revealing a pure and clean smile from my childhood." Sure, sure."

While I was walking, I turned around and shouted to the people behind me," Brother Si Ze, take care of yourself."

These words drifted back and forth in the deep valley. Their voices did not fade for a long time.

Fang Kanze had a gentle personality and was expected to be a teacher. A stable and calm life was actually very good.

Unfortunately, the heavens were unfair. They always wanted to take the lives of innocent good people and trample on the few good people in the world.

This was the impermanence of life. These impermanences would gradually turn into the daily routine of life, making people numb and unkind.

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After driving home, the next day Xu Wei'er dragged me on a tour to see the snow mountain.

The Snow Mountain was located in the northwest of S Province. Due to the high terrain and low temperature, there was often snow in autumn and winter.

On the day they arrived at the snowy mountain, snowflakes that were the size of white goose feathers drifted in the sky. The sky was filled with snow and jade trees. If only Chen Shen were there too.

Looking at the vast expanse of white snow, it was even brighter under the blue sky.

Snow was clean, but looking at it carefully, it was very dirty. No matter how clean it was, it couldn't be used in close proximity.

We fought snowball fights and made snowmen, trying to regain the innocence and Worriless of our past at this age.

For the first time, Xu Wei'er and I took a lot of beautiful pictures, and together with the first circle of friends this year, we received too many responses, including Yin Yao praise.

After staying in the snowy mountain for three whole days, we went to the famous Buddhist camp nearby and made do with me, a devout Buddhist believer.

I want to transcend, I want to atone for my sins.

Only there would I be saved from the depths of my heart and be able to feel moral and ethical comfort.

Xu Wei'er said that I was n' t wrong. It was God's fault.

I had no choice but to take every step, but the heavens did not give me another way to live.

As expected, the name of the Buddhist Holy Land was well-deserved. As soon as they stepped in, they felt a sense of solemnness and awe.

I knelt in front of Buddha devoutly and knocked on the wooden fish. I continued to recite the scriptures, trying to find relief and understanding from Buddhism. 2

Before he left, he even went to draw a signature, which was a middle-down signature.

Xu Wei'er told me not to care about this outcome. After all, faith in this thing was empty and true. Everything was floating.

I bought a lot of Buddhist memorabilia. I was going to find a temple for a long period of time. There was a Wanjia Temple not far from the school.

On the way home, we chose the green leather train as a means of transportation. It had a sense of age and added meaning to our journey.

Xu Wei'er lay on the opposite side and swiped his phone.

As for me, I was lying on the bed reading Buddhist scriptures and pressing the Buddhist timer.

Suddenly, there were a few vibrations from his phone. He received nine WeChat messages, all of them pictures from Yin Yao.

This series of unbelievable pictures had sent me from heaven to hell.

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