251: WHAT AM I TO YOU?

WHAT AM I TO YOU?

"Why did you hug me every night and then acted like it's nothing in the morning?" Iris felt her tongue went numb when she asked the question. She didn't know where she got the guts to ask him about this.1

But, she was always very clear with her emotions and everything about her. She hid nothing from him.

Therefore, his action and his capricious way to treat her, left her in apprehension. She kept questioning what he meant by that. She needed an explanation, so she would know where she was standing.

Did he want her? Or it was an impulse from the mate bond, especially when she learned about the reason why the lycan chose him. She couldn't even ask about it, because Cane barely gave an explanation to her for anything.

"You make me confused," Iris admitted when Cane didn't say anything. She had expected that, but she really wanted to know why he did that?

Cane was silent for a while, before he spoke, "You don't want me to hug you?" he asked straight to the point, but then, the answer for the question that Iris wanted was complicated, it was not a 'yes or no' answer and couldn't be simplified like the way Cane thought of it.

Iris pressed her lips into a thin line. She wanted to avert her eyes from his intense gaze and took back her question. She should have kept quiet and didn't say anything, but then, how long she could stand it?

The relationship between them was very vague and she didn't know what to expect and how to see him.

Cane made it clear for Aria that he only wanted her for his carnal desire, nothing more, but for Iris, the last time they did it was when she was in heat and every time they shared the bed, he didn't do anything, aside from holding her tightly.

Did he only want her because the mate bond gave him comfort and a shred of peace to his anarchic mind?

"I need you to let me know where I am standing. What am I to you?"

"You are my mate, the luna of the pack."

"Do you really feel it that way? Do you really see me as your mate?" Iris curled her fingers in the blanket, holding herself back from crying, because somehow, she was so upset. "Or am I still Gerald's daughter in your eyes? And you settle with me because of the mate bond?" And this heavy feeling made her felt so weak.

Cane could see the hurt in her eyes, but he didn't know what to do with her, neither he knew how to answer her question. What was she for him?

"Can we talk about this later?" Cane said in the end. He had a lot of things were going on today, which Iris was not aware of, and he was on the verge of insanity.

"When?" the question came as a desperate whisper. "You never explain anything to me and I am confused."

Iris didn't want to be into him, neither she wanted to fall in love with him if he didn't want the same thing, but with the attachment that they had for each other and the mate bond between them, that was not impossible, but then she didn't want to add love into the complication of the situation, because the depth of her love today, would be the dept of her pain tomorrow.

Cane was the only person that she had, someone that she could call as family.

The thought that she was so displeased with the sight of Cane carried Laluna and the way the princess stared at him, bothered her so much. It was jealousy, she was not so dense to not recognize it, that's why she was afraid with this development.

Cane couldn't give her a definite answer, because he didn't have one. He didn't want to have this conversation, which meant, he wanted to keep the ambiguity, because he didn't need to explain anything, neither he had to make a certain thing to be cleared.

However, that was not fair for Iris.

"You are my mate, I will treat you with respect." That was the fact. He had been treating her with nothing but the utmost respect in front of everyone, he even offended the king by turned down Nala's intention to be his mistress. "I did a lot of mistakes and let my pain got the better of me. I broke my promise not to hurt you, but I did, for that, I apologized. It will never happen again."

Iris knew that Cane was talking about how he lost his control in the library, but the memory of that day had faded away. Her subconsciousness made her forget everything that hurt her, as her way to cope up with reality.

Cane finally did apologize for what he did and explained things a little bit clearer, but Iris didn't find this satisfied. It was not his apology that she wanted and his explanation didn't answer her question. What was she for him? Where she stood?

The alpha then got off the bed and went to the wardrobe to retrieve something before he walked back and sat down on the edge of the bed, close to Iris, as he handed something to her hand.

It was a small dagger.

"This is silver dagger. You can stop me if you think I am a danger for you." Cane made Iris grabbed it. it was a white dagger, with intricated symbol in its sheath.

Iris's expression darkened. Cane didn't answer her question. "But then, your people will hate me even more for hurting their alpha." She handed back the dagger and got off the bed.

Her heart felt so heavy.

Iris took her cloak and walked out of the bedroom. She closed the door behind her and waited, but there was no sign that Cane would come after her and this made her mood even more dour.

Upset and hurt, Iris walked away aimlessly toward a garden. Little did she know, a certain black wolf had been following her surreptitiously.

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