149: C149 Analysis of Emotions

C149 Analysis of Emotions

"Yin Lan!" Chi Huo heard her mocking words and said coldly, "Don't think that we have to obey you just because the Sect Master is depending on you. This is the Eagle Sect. Those who can merge with the Eagle Sect are our brothers and sisters. Naturally, the rules of our brothers and sisters aren't as strict as before. " As for you, you thought that you have become Hua Jingsheng's brother. I didn't expect that you would be abandoned by him like this. If our Sect Chief didn't accept you, you would be worse than a dog that has lost its family. "

Yin Lan heard Chi Huo's cruel and harsh words. She turned around sternly and pulled out the spear that was tied to his waist. "Say it again!"

Chi Huo had been holding a gun to his head for so many years but this was the first time he was pointed at by someone. He smiled evilly, "You can say it a few more times. I'm just stating the facts! Why? Can't you listen to me? If I were you, I wouldn't reveal my full power like this. I will definitely hide myself well. Otherwise, I will lose my last place of shelter. Then you will really walk into a dead end!"

Yin Lan's grip on the spear was so tight that the handle of the spear was almost embedded into her fingertips. However, she could not refute Chi Huo's words.

Once she left Ning Ou's place, Vince's pursuit and Hua Jingsheng's pursuit would definitely force her into a dead end.

Chi Huo saw that Yin Lan's expression was angry but there was deep sadness in her eyes. He smiled lightly and held the spear tightly held by Yin Lan. He put it back on his waist and turned around to leave.

After the door closed again, Yin Lan's entire body seemed to have been pulled out of her strength and she fell to the ground in a daze.

She was not even comparable to a dog that lost its family!

The current her had actually fallen to such a pitiful state!

A strand of fine pain spread out from her heart, along the outer wall of her heart, sizzling and cracking. The pain deepened along with the cracking, accompanied by breathing, deep into her lungs.

In just a few short minutes, it caused her face to turn pale from the pain.

She could not tell whether this was a mental pain or a real heart pain.

She had been abandoned by Hua Jingsheng, but she was not even as good as a lost dog.

How could she be cherished by Ning Ou like this?

The night arrived quietly without any warning or preparation. When Yin Lan opened her eyes from the darkness, the surroundings were still dark.

The night sky was as thick as a curse. It wantonly dyed the entire sky, as if it wanted to pull everyone into the empire it had formed.

She moved her stiff body and hugged herself as she sat up.

As she looked at the gentle moonlight on the glass, it was painted with a gentle light. It became the only warm color in the darkness. Her suppressed heart seemed to have received comfort at this moment and slowly relaxed.

After sitting like this for an unknown amount of time, the door was opened again. The person's footsteps were gentle and his breathing was well-proportioned.

It was as if he had been deliberately trained, and he was very careful.

When he touched the dark color in his eyes, the man paused for a moment. He closed his hand gently and then walked in with light feet. However, after a few steps, he stopped again.

"Lan, you are not asleep yet?" A soft and gentle voice came from behind. It blended into the moonlight and carried an indescribable warmth.

Yin Lan did not reply. She looked at the moonlight in a daze, as if this could allow the warmth to enter her cold heart.

Ning Ou was afraid that her eyes, which had stayed in the darkness for a long time, would not get used to it and did not turn on the lights. He slowly walked towards her. Seeing her hands tightly hugging him and sitting cross-legged on the carpet, his deep eyes suddenly turned dark. After that, he bent down and sat beside her. When he saw her eyes looking at Xuan Yue above her head, he said, "Ying came to look for you today."

Yin Lan's indifferent expression moved and her gaze removed the warmth that had yet to enter her heart. Borrowing the dense dark color, she looked at him in a ghastly manner, "You came to condemn me?"

Her hands and feet were bullied, so even he could not sit by and do nothing.

Ning Ou saw that her eyes looked over from across the night sky. She gently lowered her head. Her arrogant facial features were wrapped by the clear moonlight and were suffused with layers of gentleness.

"I was worried that you would be bullied, so why would I ask for justice?"

Yin Lan, who had just stood up, was wiped away by his worried sigh. She gently knitted her brows and then looked back at the bright moonlight.

Her voice was muffled by the moonlight, "I almost killed her."

Ning Ou did not want to dig into the root of the matter. "But she is fine."1

Yin Lan gently opened her arms and her breathing became stronger. "Ning Ou, why did you keep me by your side? You know that I cannot be at ease. Aren't you afraid that one day I will hurt your people and escape?"

Ning Ou listened carefully to Yin Lan's words. He saw that her ethereal figure gradually had a solid outline. Her lips were slightly curved and her voice was clear. "I am afraid."

Yin Lan's beautiful brows were furrowed and her relaxed face was slightly stiff.

"What I'm most afraid of is not being able to keep you. In Nanxing, even more so now." Ning Ou turned his body around. His arrogant face and proud facial features shone in the moonlight. There was an indescribable gentleness and affection in his eyes. "I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... His deep eyes seemed to have been thrown into the deepest clear pond under the moonlight.

"Lan, I don't know how to make you let go of the hatred in your heart. I don't know what to do to make you trust me. "I'm not Hua Jingsheng. I didn't appear by your side when you needed me. I occupied the ten years that were most important to you. " But Lan, I have been searching for the way to get along with us. I have missed out on the way to change. "But what I can change now, I do not want to miss out on it again."

Yin Lan's gaze was fixed on the silver glass. She recalled the time when Ning Ou tightly held her and said "I love you" in despair and deep affection.

"Now is the time for you to need help. I can't leave you behind no matter what." Ning Ou could not see Yin Lan's eyes but insisted not to move.

"Ning Ou, do you know how many times I have been abandoned?" Yin Lan's stubborn gaze was finally dimmed by the moonlight. Her cold and determined eyes gradually became blurred.

Ning Ou looked at her with undisguised pain and cherish in his eyes.

"I don't even remember myself." Yin Lan frowned slightly and her eyes were filled with indulgence. "When I found out that my father killed my mother and my grandparents, I don't believe it yet, but when he decided to wipe me out, Later on, when I was saved by Hua Jingsheng, I kept wandering around the edge of being abandoned at any time. Struggling beside a group of children who didn't fear hardship and only wanted to survive. It wasn't easy for me to get to where I could have friends today. Having friends and relying on this step, But I didn't want to... " Yin Lan's voice suddenly choked, and she suppressed the sourness in her throat. Dan Po said calmly: "I am still facing the most fearful scene"

It was Ning Ou's first time hearing her talk about his own matters. As he listened carefully, his heart also rose and fell, and he felt pain.

Yin Lan lowered her eyes and looked at the shadow at her feet. "How can a person's heart be so cold? I tried very hard to be Yin Lan, not Xu Xiaoyi. I ran with all my might. I did not want to be left behind. I did things seriously and tried my best. I want to prove that I am qualified to be shoulder to shoulder. But I feel like I can never catch up. I can't catch up. I am also a person. There are emotions, warmth, and bottom lines. There are also times when there is weakness, loneliness, and fear. Do you understand? "

Ning Ou knew that these words were not meant for him, but he still could not help but answer, "I understand. I understand."

Yin Lan raised her head to look at him and suddenly smiled, "You don't understand! You don't understand why I hate you, you don't understand why I don't want to face your feelings, you don't understand why I said we can't be together. So you keep asking me questions, asking for confirmation, and analyzing me. "You think that your love can cover all pain, but you don't know that I've already lost my redemption."

Ning Ou looked at Yin Lan who was smiling sadly and listened to her words. His thoughts were in chaos and he could not help but reach out to touch her. But when he saw her instinctively retreat, he stopped his hand again. All the gentleness and pain turned into the sadness and helplessness in his eyes.

"If you don't believe me, of course you won't be saved by me." She didn't believe in his feelings, his sincerity, and his ability. She didn't want to give herself to him. Even if he wanted to get close to her, he only wanted to keep a close distance from her. He didn't want to hold her tightly.

"Yes, I don't believe you." Yin Lan nodded and admitted honestly.

"Then why can you tolerate Hua Jingsheng making use of you again and again?" Ning Ou did not understand. He could tell that Yin Lan had feelings for him, but she refused to lower her head and admit defeat. She had always been competing with him.

"Because only he knew all my injuries and understood all my pain. Even though we don't have love, we still have love. We can accompany each other and merge with each other. We can live until the end of our lives."

Ning Ou listened to Yin Lan's self-deceiving words. He had always reminded himself to be gentle and not to get into conflict with her. In the end, he could not bear it. His gaze was like a knife piercing straight into Yin Lan's eyes that wanted to escape. His voice was hurried and urgent, "Actually, you are afraid of getting hurt. Afraid of pain. You have love, but you don't dare to believe it. You have the heart, but you don't dare to move. You have always been following the inertia between you and Hua Jingsheng. It's good to tell yourself this way. You can also live your entire life. If your heart isn't on him, then you won't be sad. You won't feel pain, you won't feel despair. You still think that this way you can control yourself. Control your life, you don't have to lose everything! But Yin Lan, You have to think that you don't get hurt in everything, and you can protect yourself. You won't be in despair. Since you are so selfish. Why did you provoke me back then? "

Ning Ou's words were like a steel knife, directly cutting through the layers of defense Yin Lan had painstakingly built and ruthlessly stabbing into her heart. She looked at Ning Ou with rapid breathing, wanting to deny it righteously, but she could not find a place to stand.

She had been carefully guarding her thoughts. After being analyzed by Ning Ou in such a ruthless manner, she was able to see everything clearly without leaving a single trace. She thought that this was the best way. She thought that no one could see through it. Even Hua Jingsheng did not doubt it. She thought that she could hide it from the heavens.

It had been so many years, so many years. She had deceived everyone, including herself!

She did not want to be seen through by a vicious and flamboyant Ning Ou!

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